14 Week Health "Challenge"

Day 20

It was hot again this morning, so I thought here we go another day too hot to go walking with my puggy, and low and behold as the day progresses it rains and drops the temperature to a beautiful 21 degrees Celsius. So I’m thinking sweet I can go for my evening walk in the cool and everything will be wonderful. Except the rain comes back half way through dinner. And it doesn’t stop. If I have time in the morning tomorrow (or if not I’ll do it when I finish work) imma drive by this gym so I know where it is and if google is correct in saying it is 4mins from my work lol.

Today’s Stats;

> “Move”: 1,641kjs

> “Exercise”: 6mins

> Steps: 6,364

> Total distance walked today: 4.73kms

14 Week Health "Challenge"

Day 19

So I meant to look more into depth about that gym that is about 5mins away from my work, but I completely forgot about it, I had so much other stuff going on today…

I didn’t eat too badly, however I did have some chocolate ice cream. I know I shouldn’t have. I have also felt all day like my period was going to start, but according to my tracker app I’m not due for another week… I started keeping a track of it as it seemed to be all over the place, just so I had a record of it.

Today’s stats;

> “Move”: 1,667kjs

> “Exercise”: 7mins

> Steps: 5,457

> Total distance walked today: 3.87kms

14 Week Health "Challenge"

Day 18

So, I loosely researched gyms today haha. There is one about 5-10mins away from my work that I could potentially use before and after work. So imma look more into that.

Didn’t do my morning and evening walk again, due to ridiculous high temperatures again, but I did do some walking around a shopping centre for Christmas presents 😂

Today’s stats;

> “Move”: 2,362kjs

> “Exercise”: 7mins

> Steps: 10,407

> Total distance walked today: 7.06kms

14 Week Health "Challenge"

Day 17

I really don’t know what I am going to do. I feel like I may need to start going to a gym again. Another day has passed with it being 30 degrees celsius plus and I just cant do it. I cant walk/exercise my dog in this extreme heat. Whereas if I am in a gym I will be inside aircon. I don’t know what to do.

Todays Stats;

> “Move”: 1,623kj
> “Exercise”: 12mins
> Steps: 5,654
> Total Distance Walked Today: 4.13kms

My Mental Health Journey

My Heart Has Begun Racing Again

One of the worse physical symptoms of my anxiety that caused me to go on medication because I couldn’t handle it anymore was my heart would race. So fast.

Like it literally was going to beat so fast I was going to have a heart attack. Or my heart would escape out of my chest. I could feel my pulse throbbing through my entire body in my veins. Like my veins could explode from the force of the blood that my heart was rushing through them. I couldn’t breathe. Like, I could breathe, but I felt like I couldn’t breathe. And that would just make the anxiety worse. Because then my body would go into overdrive panic mode which would then make it even harder to breathe. And the vicious cycle begins. And when I am in public, or at work, its not really an ideal situation.

I would have this along with sweating palms, hot flushes, and the need to flight (over fight). Whether that was also caused by my racing heart, I don’t know. It then got so severe, and so re-occurant that I couldn’t handle it any longer.

And then when I started to take the medication the physical symptoms began to disappear. Which was amazing. But then I started to feel depressed. Like, literal depression was upon me. I don’t know if the physical symptoms were blocking the depression, or whether the medication was causing those feelings. My partner, and my therapist both think it is the former. I honestly don’t know. The former does seem more likely, but I cant disregard the latter altogether when antidepressants can increase the desire to commit suicide can I?

Not that I am suicidal. Argh, I digress. Lately, maybe the past fortnight or so, my heart has been racing again. But at seemingly random times. I could be driving along, singing along to music, and bam heart starts having palpitations, or I could be in the shower, or falling asleep, or watching tv, you get the idea. Or writing this post. It has just started.

I don’t know why it has started again. But I want it to stop. I need it to stop.

14 Week Health "Challenge"

Days 15 and 16

Sorry for not posting yesterday guys, and tonights post will be very brief also, long story short I had to change phones (temporarily until I get my new one 🙂 ) and I got locked out of my account/couldn’t get into my account. Which hopefully doesn’t happen again when I get my new phone. And I have to get up early for work so I will be going to bed ASAP.

One problem that I shamefully haven’t thought of/factored into this while thing is that it is coming into summer. And its getting quite hot. Like I was running errands yesterday and every time I stepped outside I was punched in the face by a heat wave. And because of this I didn’t exercise because it was just way too hot. I’m going to have to work something out with that. Because it was the same thing today. Over 30 degrees Celsius and the last thing I want to be doing is going for a walk outside.

Todays Stats:

> “Move”: 1,619kjs
> “Exercise”: 13mins
> Steps: 5,301
> Total Distance walked today: 3.91kms

14 Week Health "Challenge"

Day 14; Weigh In Day

Weigh in day.. Not surprisingly I did not lose weight this week. More hurtful than that is actually the fact that I put on weight. I am still lighter than I was 14 days ago, but put on just over half of what I lost last week. I cannot keep doing this.

I put on 700g. So last week I had lost 1.2kgs and today when I weighed myself I was 700g heavier. I shouldn’t be surprised. I was not expecting to lose weight. But still putting on weight hurts. Even when I 100% know it is my fault; it was almost 7 days of bad choices. I didn’t do my two daily walks, and I ate poorly.

Todays Stats;

> “Move”: 1,525kjs (approx 364 calories)
> “Exercise”: 2mins
> Steps: 7,263
> Total Distance Travelled Today: 4.63km (or approx 2.8 miles)